Mercy weeps.

The rain is pouring down outside, and I'm sitting safe and warm here in my room at my desk. My heart has been moved today...funny how that works. Lately I've been terribly down in the mouth. Mostly selfishness I guess, though the extent of it is just that I don't care much for life at the moment. I'm bored to death, and feel lifeless most of the time, as though I am just going through the motions. I know on the outside I'm not a very emotional person at times, but on the inside, whoa baby, hang on for the ride, I am the most pathetic emotional person I've ever known. I guess everyone feels that way deep inside. Most of the time I feel like my insides are constantly undergoing civil war.
Never the less, whenever I seem to get caught in one of the downwards spirals of feeling sorry for myself, I know it always leads to a profound encounter with God. Not sure how that works, but being so dissatisfied always triggers deeper things, as God uses it to continue His transforming. It likes He's showing me who I am, and then showing me who He is. Instantly the humility comes, and then the overwhelming love.
That happened today...and though I don't exactly feel instantly different, something has changed. I was ready for it.

My Eyes Have Seen Holy

Bebo Norman

Am I unfit for You
Remember me
The one who turned from You
I come in rags
Tattered by the fall
And all the earth
Will witness to my cry

Mercy, weep over me
And let Your tears
Wash me clean
Majesty, be merciful with me
For my eyes have seen Holy

Here my prayer
At night
Let the morning
Find me alive
For I am tired
And weakened by the fall
Let all the earth
Bear witness to my cry

Mercy, weep over me
Let Your tears
Wash me clean
Majesty, be merciful with me
For my eyes have seen Holy

Let the amen
Sound from Heaven
As You lift my soul
Let the amen
Sound from Heaven
As You lift my soul
Let the angels
Sound from Heaven
Holy is the Lord

Mercy, weep over me
Let Your tears
Wash me clean
Majesty, be merciful with me
For my eyes have seen Holy